so you got another girlfriend or smth?
I don't know, and I don't wanna know.
wadever, okie?
why do you have to rebuke everything I said?
cant you just gimme the FREEDOM to blog?!?!?!
Everything is over.
Leave it as that, ok?
I have the right to feel with regards of the whole thing.
It's my feelings, my opinion, on our failed relationship.
there's no right or wrong, so just let me be, gimme the freedom to feel!
you don't even have the RIGHT to tell me or give opinion on how I should feel!
all along, I told myself to keep cool on the whole thing. not to state out everything, not to worsen the whole situation and turn to mean faces, to just let it pass and over with.
but you pushed me too far.
you said,
I din give you a chance to explain, ehs?
what is there for you to explain?
you said, if I feel I can't carry on, tell you and you'll let me go.
I TOLD YOU, i really cant carry on. so I let go.
why can't I carry on?
cuz it's close to 3 years. despite trying and trying, breaking and patching up, it's still the same. yeapps, there's improvements, but duhs?
one cant survive on love alone.
it's rubbish.
your love comes with that genuine sacred element that was for me and no one else. I totally went in sync with it. but u stopped at that. besides that love, you must add care, concern, sweetness, tenderness, communication in it, do you know that? It's about trying to make effort to know my loved ones as well, not to shun away.
what a laugh. my bf for almost 3 years and din even make an effort to try to even see or know my best friend.
what is there to explain?
that to give you one more chance and be good again?
Chances are given, hopes are risen then crushed and formed into disappointment and helplessness. Trust and faith faded into doubtfulness and despair. Strength are diminished.
I walked away this r/s with tears.
The tears that made my mum, sis, and godma hurt for me.
The tears that flowed when I resigned to everything and leave.
friends wanted me to be freed from all this.
because they tink I can just survive well, that it's time for me to treat myself right and proper.
I healed myself with a smile and a tear-streaked face.
cuz you seem 2 really understand and mature, and though everything is an end, the thought of you and I both keeping this sweet fairytale of ours in our lives for the future makes me feel contented.
that what we had are cherished.
but what now?
I was soooo wrong.
you seem to think you are perfectly correct. I was wrong. I din give u a chance to explain. it's my bad. MY bad.
you now said,
"forget it. I don't wish to care or think about it."
you know wad?
GO AHEAD and forget it! I never wanted you to care or think about it! because you don't even want to care or think about anything when Im with you, why bother about it now?!?!
It's my thoughts, you don't have to rebuke what I said.
and since you don't have to rebuke, you don't even have to care or think!
you could be exploding with fury and thinking of ways to get me back again, or not even reading this.
whatever it is, I said all this not to spite you.
even though I know with your temper, you'll be ranting me as a fucking bitch.
whatever it is, please.
give me MY freedom to blog
and..
LEAVE ME ALONE.
thank you very much. | 
